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RE: Lien's Letters to Home - TetrisLover225 - 28-01-2017
Khanh,
I changed the music a little to fit your lyrics, it's on the next page. I don't know, I thought it needed to be more… loopy? Cyclical? To match the whirlwind stuff. Also it makes ending the song a lot easier, you just keep repeating lyrics until you fade. I love the lyrics. Let me know how you feel about the instrumental. It's good to hear that stuff with Thao’s getting better. Not so great about the smoking, but ok. If you think it helps, fine. I can’t believe I’m agreeing with Tuan on this, it’s so humiliating.
I’m up and down. Trade stuff is kicking my ass. Everything was easier when there was, you know. A farmer, a whole bunch of stuff going out en masse. Kane keeps offering grave robbing: apparently protecting the tomb in the tunnels wasn’t his idea. So I guess that mystery is solved. Is it weird that I think it’s so sweet that he’d rob dead people for me? I mean you wouldn’t do it. And I said no, Khanh. If the ancestors do watch over you, they’re not going to be mad at me.
People are reacting the way I warned you against, but I mean… I was expecting it. Pa came by for trade and saw me working for the first time. He said, or you know, said but not really said that I shouldn’t sleep with traders for the job. Thanks, pa. Wasn’t on the table, ever. My self-esteem’s kind of screwed up now, but I don’t know. Maybe with time, it will pass. I have more to worry about.
Like on top of that, Zarkaylia hates me. I mean she hated me before, but now it’s super out there and everything is weird. I don’t know how it happened: I just said, “I guess I’ll see you next time I need something”. You know, like a cute little poke at what she said about me to you and Tuan when I wasn’t there. I thought she’d apologise for talking behind me but instead she just went into this thing about how I don’t respect her. Which isn’t true, for the last time! I don’t know why you and she thinks that.
Apparently it’s because I don’t talk to her? But I don’t talk to lots of people. And why does she want to talk to me, anyway? At her house, with the soup, she asked me if it was weird if she married that woman she was with at the ball? And it was so weird? Because what does it matter what I think? I’m just some screw up kid. She said she doesn’t have anyone her age to talk to, and I guess I get that, but I don’t know. There’s people a generation closer. There’s her family. And I feel for her and I know it’s kinda bad but I don’t like how she was mad at me like it was my fault?
I stay out of her way, it’s the ultimate respect. It’s way more respectful than I don’t know, flagging down her time so I can complain about Solomon acting like a pig around Eyana. And she kept reminding me that she’s my boss now, like that means we should talk about this kind of stuff more? That really rubbed me the wrong way. The whole thing ended in a huff and now she doesn’t, I don’t know, she doesn’t glare at me in the street but I can tell she doesn’t like me in that adult way.
Anyway, that stuff aside… I’ve just been hanging out with Kane and this new guy in town. I don’t know what you guys talked about while you were here (tell me!) but this woman he’s been in love with for a while suddenly decided to like him back and they’re going to have a kid together. It sounds fast, but only because I’m skipping a whole lot of details. Also because yeah, it is kind of… sudden. Kane still doesn’t know why she picked him, all of a sudden. I swear to the gods he’s going to get his little stone heart broken and I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I mean… he’s not exactly like you in this sense, he doesn’t have the emotional range to just write poetry or music.
The new guy’s name is Nicola but it’s definitely Nic for short. He reminds me a lot of me when I first got here, and that is kind of depressing. I don’t know, Khanh. He’s like super enthusiastic and jumps right into stuff. Within ten minutes he asked me if Zaira was single. He found out we don’t have a source for milk and instead of taking my offer of me getting him almond or coconut milk through pa he wanted to get a team together to catch a wild cow. I just wish I could be like that. I’m not even sure if I ever was like that, or if time just makes me think I changed. Maybe it’s time and the cold: this winter is also kicking my ass. It’s just a really cold one all of a sudden, makes the docks super miserable.
I’m getting some warm clothes soon, quit nagging,
Lien