22-10-2015, 05:51 AM
Hi, Khanh,
Thanks for keeping a secret this time. And thanks for the advice: I actually feel a lot better about the whole thing. You know, with the guys that were killed. I found some people who finally got it and I guess I just was able to understand how I felt about it once I talked about it properly. I don’t know. What was bothering me was that when I jumped into the fight, I had no idea we were going to kill them. Or that there would even be blood. There was so much blood, Khanh. I will never forget looking up and seeing all that blood. A thousand periods could not match it. Sorry. I can’t help myself: joking is how I’m coping, I guess. That and not jumping into any more fights.
I’m so sorry to hear about Mai. But you should lay off of her, Khanh. You can’t force motherhood onto someone who doesn’t want to be a mother: what do you think trying to make her stay will do for you and the wee baby Thao? She’ll just resent you, or worse, resent her. I know it's not fair. I know raising a kid on your own sounds fucking terrifying, because it is, but you have the whole family to help you. It will work out. And I guess this means I’ll have to visit soon, but I’m not sure when that will be. Not just because of, you know, how stuff went, but because I don’t know. I’ve been out here a while, Khanh, and I think some people here might need me more than they admit.
It’s a long story. Actually, no it isn’t. There’s this girl who has serious abandonment problems and not too many friends outside of her own family. Then there’s this man who… ok, maybe this one’s a long story. He fell in love with this Xitian woman whose pa would only let her marry another Xitian, so he came out here trying to find a way to become an Xitian, but now that love of his died. He’s kind of a mess. Yeah, I know I'm way out of my depth, and it's not my job to get all their shit together. And I know you need me too, it's just that I have to make sure everyone is going to be fine before I'm out. I need to make sure.
As for good news: my leg is better and I finally got laid! I’ll spare you the details again, but I wrote a song about her. It's kind of stupid. Lyrics aren’t my best work, but you know, this one guy I know who knows the girl in question and spends maybe 60% of our conversations talking about this one other girl says it sounds good. Actually, that’s probably not a good sign, is it? Well I’m going to send it over to you, but I don’t think you’ll get it before I perform it. What else has happened… there’s this festival in town. And I got a pet bunny. Their name is Cottonbum, Destroyer of Realms. And that’s pretty much it.
Sorry this is kind of a short letter, but I don’t think you’re up for too much reading with the wee baby Thao and… the Mai situation. I’ll visit when I can, but until then, feel free to send me anything you want if it makes me feel better.
Love and best wishes,
The Wee Baby Thao’s Favorite Auntie
P.S.: Tell me what everyone else got for the wee baby Thao so I can get a better gift.
Thanks for keeping a secret this time. And thanks for the advice: I actually feel a lot better about the whole thing. You know, with the guys that were killed. I found some people who finally got it and I guess I just was able to understand how I felt about it once I talked about it properly. I don’t know. What was bothering me was that when I jumped into the fight, I had no idea we were going to kill them. Or that there would even be blood. There was so much blood, Khanh. I will never forget looking up and seeing all that blood. A thousand periods could not match it. Sorry. I can’t help myself: joking is how I’m coping, I guess. That and not jumping into any more fights.
I’m so sorry to hear about Mai. But you should lay off of her, Khanh. You can’t force motherhood onto someone who doesn’t want to be a mother: what do you think trying to make her stay will do for you and the wee baby Thao? She’ll just resent you, or worse, resent her. I know it's not fair. I know raising a kid on your own sounds fucking terrifying, because it is, but you have the whole family to help you. It will work out. And I guess this means I’ll have to visit soon, but I’m not sure when that will be. Not just because of, you know, how stuff went, but because I don’t know. I’ve been out here a while, Khanh, and I think some people here might need me more than they admit.
It’s a long story. Actually, no it isn’t. There’s this girl who has serious abandonment problems and not too many friends outside of her own family. Then there’s this man who… ok, maybe this one’s a long story. He fell in love with this Xitian woman whose pa would only let her marry another Xitian, so he came out here trying to find a way to become an Xitian, but now that love of his died. He’s kind of a mess. Yeah, I know I'm way out of my depth, and it's not my job to get all their shit together. And I know you need me too, it's just that I have to make sure everyone is going to be fine before I'm out. I need to make sure.
As for good news: my leg is better and I finally got laid! I’ll spare you the details again, but I wrote a song about her. It's kind of stupid. Lyrics aren’t my best work, but you know, this one guy I know who knows the girl in question and spends maybe 60% of our conversations talking about this one other girl says it sounds good. Actually, that’s probably not a good sign, is it? Well I’m going to send it over to you, but I don’t think you’ll get it before I perform it. What else has happened… there’s this festival in town. And I got a pet bunny. Their name is Cottonbum, Destroyer of Realms. And that’s pretty much it.
Sorry this is kind of a short letter, but I don’t think you’re up for too much reading with the wee baby Thao and… the Mai situation. I’ll visit when I can, but until then, feel free to send me anything you want if it makes me feel better.
Love and best wishes,
The Wee Baby Thao’s Favorite Auntie
P.S.: Tell me what everyone else got for the wee baby Thao so I can get a better gift.