[Hutchy]

Once again, it seems that I find myself in the position that I find it is best that I take a leave from the server. My outburst yesterday was 'unacceptable' and I simply cannot keep myself in check at this point, but neither was the way staff pushed me in such a way as they did when everyone here knows damn well what I'm trying to put aside when I come on here. That was low, selfish and banning me when you know damn well what's working me up is just as 'unacceptable' as my behavior may seem to you staffers.

Things are getting worse and worse at home and it's out of my hands. I'm angry, scared and powerless to do anything. Much as I hate to admit it, I've been losing sleep every day and it's starting to show. People say I'm angsty all the time, that I can't concentrate, but the worst part is that there's nothing I can do to help this.

I'm sure that at this point you're past caring, especially those of you I openly admit I dislike, but as last time, I'll come back when I feel I'm able... and when I feel I can tolerate you particular people again.

--Death