25-02-2016, 03:25 PM
Hey, Khanh,
Just thought I should leave you a letter before I take off for… Home? Yeah, home. Nightveil. It's weird to think of it like that because I always talk about you guys when I talk about home, but then what is Nightveil? Just this place where I live? I guess not, but that's not really the point of this letter.
The point is… I don't know, actually. I guess I want to say sorry for being such a drag during my whole visit. But that's not right, isn't it? It's stupid but sometimes when I'm feeling shit it's like people expect me to just be whatever they want me to be. It's kind of like pa except instead of Lien: deadbeat loser, they want Lien: clown, jester, ray of sunshine. You know? It's like I'm not allowed to be unhappy because being a happy person is what I'm known for so much. So I don’t want to apologise for being a drag.
I guess it's not really a sorry, but more of a thank you? Thanks, Khanh, for always listening to me even when you had to juggle it with Thao and work. And for never expecting me to be anything except what I am. And for hanging out with me so much. Gods, I had no idea how much I missed your piggy backs. And performing with you! It’s nice to dance to the songs without having to play my lute at the same time. I guess I want you to know I love you and even if your advice wasn't as good as Ma’s, you helped a ton.
I don't know what I'm gonna do now. Ma told me to be kind to myself the same way I’d be kind to someone going through the same thing but it doesn't change how badly my actions affected people. I want to help but I feel like I've already done enough damage. And you know, I'm just me. It's not like I can just write a song to make things better. It's not like any party can take back Tuan the dragon ruining their home because he was angry a stink bomb ruined his home.
I'm rambling. It was nice to see everyone. Thao is adorable and I'm bummed Phi won best aunt but I guess that's what I get for not trying. Gods, it was even nice to see Tuan, but don't tell him that, of course. You know, for all that shit he gives us, he's actually really nice to animals. Maybe he can tame a dragon one day.
It's a nice thought,
Lien
Just thought I should leave you a letter before I take off for… Home? Yeah, home. Nightveil. It's weird to think of it like that because I always talk about you guys when I talk about home, but then what is Nightveil? Just this place where I live? I guess not, but that's not really the point of this letter.
The point is… I don't know, actually. I guess I want to say sorry for being such a drag during my whole visit. But that's not right, isn't it? It's stupid but sometimes when I'm feeling shit it's like people expect me to just be whatever they want me to be. It's kind of like pa except instead of Lien: deadbeat loser, they want Lien: clown, jester, ray of sunshine. You know? It's like I'm not allowed to be unhappy because being a happy person is what I'm known for so much. So I don’t want to apologise for being a drag.
I guess it's not really a sorry, but more of a thank you? Thanks, Khanh, for always listening to me even when you had to juggle it with Thao and work. And for never expecting me to be anything except what I am. And for hanging out with me so much. Gods, I had no idea how much I missed your piggy backs. And performing with you! It’s nice to dance to the songs without having to play my lute at the same time. I guess I want you to know I love you and even if your advice wasn't as good as Ma’s, you helped a ton.
I don't know what I'm gonna do now. Ma told me to be kind to myself the same way I’d be kind to someone going through the same thing but it doesn't change how badly my actions affected people. I want to help but I feel like I've already done enough damage. And you know, I'm just me. It's not like I can just write a song to make things better. It's not like any party can take back Tuan the dragon ruining their home because he was angry a stink bomb ruined his home.
I'm rambling. It was nice to see everyone. Thao is adorable and I'm bummed Phi won best aunt but I guess that's what I get for not trying. Gods, it was even nice to see Tuan, but don't tell him that, of course. You know, for all that shit he gives us, he's actually really nice to animals. Maybe he can tame a dragon one day.
It's a nice thought,
Lien